A while ago, a few months maybe, God spoke to me and said, “You are suffering from spiritual indigestion.” In fact, when I heard it, I was driving and it came out of my own mouth before I even thought what I was saying.
“I’ve got spiritual indigestion.”
There, I had said it but what? Who says something like that? What is it anyway? I thought it was just me so I overlooked it, put it off, out of sight, out of mind. But all along, God had been planning my menu.
I have finished reading The Christian Atheist: Believing in God but Living As If He Doesn’t Exist by Craig Groeschel
And now, I’m reading, Forgotten God: Reversing Our Tragic Neglect of Holy Spirit by Francis Chan
As I’m reading, it’s become all to clear that I do have it and God said it! I have spiritual indigestion.
So back to the question, what is it?
Well, as far as I can tell, it’s wrongly ingesting the Word of God for my own feel good purposes. Binging but never purging. Eating for my own self, my own sake and using nothing of it for the furtherance of the Kingdom.
I’ve been asking myself some hard questions lateley and I don’t like the answer. When was the last time I read the Word for His sake? What have I been praying all this time? For what have I been asking and has it been for His sake or mine? What am I doing? Again, is it for His sake?
I’ve learned that when you are suffering from spiritual indigestion, you will inevitably lose your appetite. The reflux of overindulgence will eventually leave a bad taste in your mouth. You’ll find yourself going to the Word only for some sweet milk because you can’t stomach the meat at this point. The last you had eaten is still laying in your gut, unheeded.
I have to change my diet. I can’t eat just for me anymore.
Last night I found myself praying Philippians 3. Lord, let it be.
Philippians 3:7-15 (Amplified)
7But whatever former things I had that might have been gains to me, I have come to consider as [ one combined] loss for Christ’s sake.
8Yes, furthermore, I count everything as loss compared to the possession of the priceless privilege (the overwhelming preciousness, the surpassing worth, and supreme advantage) of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord and of progressively becoming more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him [of perceiving and recognizing and understanding Him more fully and clearly]. For His sake I have lost everything and consider it all to be mere rubbish (refuse, dregs), in order that I may win (gain) Christ (the Anointed One),
9And that I may [actually] be found and known as in Him, not having any [self-achieved] righteousness that can be called my own, based on my obedience to the Law’s demands (ritualistic uprightness and supposed right standing with God thus acquired), but possessing that [genuine righteousness] which comes through faith in Christ (the Anointed One), the [truly] right standing with God, which comes from God by [saving] faith.
10[For my determined purpose is] that I may know Him [that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly], and that I may in that same way come to know the power outflowing from His resurrection [which it exerts over believers], and that I may so share His sufferings as to be continually transformed [in spirit into His likeness even] to His death, [in the hope]
11That if possible I may attain to the [ spiritual and moral] resurrection [that lifts me] out from among the dead [even while in the body].
12Not that I have now attained [this ideal], or have already been made perfect, but I press on to lay hold of (grasp) and make my own, that for which Christ Jesus (the Messiah) has laid hold of me and made me His own.
13I do not consider, brethren, that I have captured and made it my own [yet]; but one thing I do [it is my one aspiration]: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead,
14I press on toward the goal to win the [supreme and heavenly] prize to which God in Christ Jesus is calling us upward.
15So let those [of us] who are spiritually mature and full-grown have this mind and hold these convictions; and if in any respect you have a different attitude of mind, God will make that clear to you also.