Monthly Archives: July 2010

And Forget Not All His Benefits

A.W. Tozer once said this, “As a man prays, so is he.” Reading this, I was provoked to ask myself a hard question.  What have I become as a result of reading the word and prayer? 

It all comes down to for what reason have I been reading?  For who’s sake?  Mine or His? 

What have I been praying?  Has it been for my sake or for His? 

 And the things I think and do?  For what cause and for who’s benefit? 

 I love what Matthew 10:39 says, He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it.”   

Our life is going to flow from the time we spend in the Word, in prayer, in meditation and in our doing or “being” as long as it’s for His sake.

Life is defined in this passage as the “soul” which is the seat of our emotions.  Our feelings, desires, affections and even aversions come from the soul.

 That word loseth is defined as putting to death or to put away entirely.  It speaks of separation.  Being separate from what we think or feel in order to be united with what God thinks and feels. 

In essence, it’s about motive and agenda.  It’s an indication of who we are living for when we find ourselves asking, what will I gain from this?  How will this benefit me?  What blessing will come to me? 

Right motive asks the question, what will God gain from this?  Agenda is revealed in will this benefit His cause and will He be blessed?

When He gains, we gain.  When God reaps the benefits, we reap and are ultimately blessed. 

I can’t help but to think that I have been reading Psalm 103:2 the wrong way (or should I say my way) for too long.  Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits.” 

Bless the Lord O my soul…

O my thoughts…

O my feelings…

O my wants…

O my ways…

O my motives…

O my agendas…

And forget not that all of these things are for His benefit.  When I pray, He should benefit! When I spend time in the word, He should gain.  When I go about doing and being, it should bless Him.  Don’t forget!  Don’t forget!



Holy Balance

Job 33:19-28~

19 He is chastened also with pain upon his bed, and the multitude of his bones with strong pain: 20 So that his life abhorreth bread, and his soul dainty  meat. 21 His flesh is consumed away, that it cannot be seen; and his bones that were not seen stick out. 22 Yea, his soul draweth near unto the grave, and his life to the destroyers. 23 If there be a messenger with him, an interpreter, one among a thousand, to shew unto man his uprightness: 24 Then he is gracious unto him, and saith, Deliver him from going down to the pit: I have found a ransom.  25 His flesh shall be fresher than a child’s: he shall return to the days of his youth: 26 He shall pray unto God, and he will be favourable unto him: and he shall see his face with joy: for he will render unto man his righteousness. 27 He looketh upon men, and if any say, I have sinned, and perverted that which was right, and it profited me not; 28 He will deliver his soul from going into the pit, and his life shall see the light.

Last night, we were honored to have with us Ps. David Lease, of, Guatemala with us.  He, along with his wife Regina, work alongside Ps. Mike & Dottie Clark, ministering to hundreds of orphaned children.  He brought such and encouraging word and the entire time he ministered, he smiled.  This was an outward response to an internal disposition.  Not something he even thought about I’m certain but I sincerely was in awe as I listened and observed him.  His countenance was literally shining and I know it was the oil of Psalm 104:15  that was making his face to shine.  Holy Spirit in his countenance.  I so desire that.  To love like that and just have it radiate from my person without any fleshy effort.  Just written on my sleeve, OH HOW I LOVE JESUS!  and seeping from my pores.  His testimony resinates of what only God can do.  I love it!

Yep…already on a bunny trail but I had to share that.  Write the vision, right? 

OK…focus.  Last night as he shared, he mentioned a time when he was in Russia and was ministering. Didn’t know a word of Russian and was completely dependent on the translator or interpreter to speak what he had spoken and had to trust that the mediator was saying only what he said.  It was before the days when the church was “trained to fall down” (ha!).  And he said that as he was preaching the word, the people just began to fall out, no one touching them and no one to catch them.  And as he was looking around, he began to feel a bit “heady”.  Look what I did.  And God leveled him.  He said, “You see that man over there?  Your interpreter?  You didn’t do anything! These people couldn’t understand a single word you said!  They understood him.  The anointing flowed through him!”

He didn’t camp out here but I wasted no time pitching my tent!  God wanted to do some camping and the camp fire was burning!  Hours into the night last night, there I was, me in my tent with God!  

Did that interpreter say what Ps. David said?  What if he didn’t?  Now, this is a man, saying the words of a man who was saying the words of God.  But what if what he did or didn’t repeat is what made all the difference?  Are you following me? 

Now, let’s take out the middle man.  (Sorry Ps. David.)  It’s just God, the interpreter and the people…a lost and dying people.  Isn’t it detrimental that every word the interpreter speaks be accurate?  Nothing added or taken away.  Lives are hanging in the balance and one word weighed down with human effort or pride can tip the scale in the wrong direction.  I’m reminded of Psalm 26:12, “My foot standeth in an even place: in the congregations will I bless the LORD (the existing One).”   Holy Balance. 

And may I just insert here as well that according to Job 33, an interpreter is rare.  One in a thousand.  I’m not saying that there is only one in a thousand but is strikes my heart that right interpretation is rare.  To hear only what Father is saying…  It should make us all fall down. 

Holy Spirit, thank you.  Thank you for saying only what you hear Father saying.  Thank you for coming and living here in me.  It’s amazing that You are in me.  You don’t come and go.  But You stay.  You want to stay and I thank You for that.  Help me.  I want to say only what Father is saying from here on out.  Thank you for the gift of tongues and interpretation of tongues to say what Father is saying.  I’m honored and I reverence You Lord.  I fear the words of Your mouth and the desire of Your heart.  One word from You is better than a million words from me. Thank you that my foot stands in an even place. Give me Holy balance Lord.  Help me not to shift my weight around and bring imbalance.  I want to be a blessing to You.  I’m proof of Your existence!  I know as I write this and pray this, that You will keep me in this.  Thank you for that.  I love You.  Amen.


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Spiritual Indigestion

A while ago, a few months maybe, God spoke to me and said, “You are suffering from spiritual indigestion.”  In fact, when I heard it, I was driving and it came out of my own mouth before I even thought what I was saying. 

“I’ve got spiritual indigestion.”  

There, I had said it but what?  Who says something like that?  What is it anyway?  I thought it was just me so I overlooked it, put it off, out of sight, out of mind.  But all along, God had been planning my menu.

I have finished reading The Christian Atheist: Believing in God but Living As If He Doesn’t Exist by Craig Groeschel

And now, I’m reading, Forgotten God: Reversing Our Tragic Neglect of Holy Spirit by Francis Chan  

As I’m reading, it’s become all to clear that I do have it and God said it! I have spiritual indigestion.

So back to the question, what is it?    

Well, as far as I can tell, it’s wrongly ingesting the Word of God for my own feel good purposes.  Binging but never purging.  Eating for my own self, my own sake and using nothing of it for the furtherance of the Kingdom. 

I’ve been asking myself some hard questions lateley and I don’t like the answer.  When was the last time I read the Word for His sake?  What have I been praying all this time?  For what have I been asking and has it been for His sake or mine?  What am I doing?  Again, is it for His sake? 

I’ve learned that when you are suffering from spiritual indigestion, you will inevitably lose your appetite.  The reflux of overindulgence will eventually leave a bad taste in your mouth.  You’ll find yourself going to the Word only for some sweet milk because you can’t stomach the meat at this point.  The last you had eaten is still laying in your gut, unheeded.

I have to change my diet.  I can’t eat just for me anymore. 

Last night I found myself praying Philippians 3.  Lord, let it be. 

Philippians 3:7-15 (Amplified)

7But whatever former things I had that might have been gains to me, I have come to consider as [ one combined] loss for Christ’s sake.

8Yes, furthermore, I count everything as loss compared to the possession of the priceless privilege (the overwhelming preciousness, the surpassing worth, and supreme advantage) of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord and of progressively becoming more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him [of perceiving and recognizing and understanding Him more fully and clearly]. For His sake I have lost everything and consider it all to be mere rubbish (refuse, dregs), in order that I may win (gain) Christ (the Anointed One),

9And that I may [actually] be found and known as in Him, not having any [self-achieved] righteousness that can be called my own, based on my obedience to the Law’s demands (ritualistic uprightness and supposed right standing with God thus acquired), but possessing that [genuine righteousness] which comes through faith in Christ (the Anointed One), the [truly] right standing with God, which comes from God by [saving] faith.

10[For my determined purpose is] that I may know Him [that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly], and that I may in that same way come to know the power outflowing from His resurrection [which it exerts over believers], and that I may so share His sufferings as to be continually transformed [in spirit into His likeness even] to His death, [in the hope]

11That if possible I may attain to the [ spiritual and moral] resurrection [that lifts me] out from among the dead [even while in the body].

12Not that I have now attained [this ideal], or have already been made perfect, but I press on to lay hold of (grasp) and make my own, that for which Christ Jesus (the Messiah) has laid hold of me and made me His own.

13I do not consider, brethren, that I have captured and made it my own [yet]; but one thing I do [it is my one aspiration]: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead,

14I press on toward the goal to win the [supreme and heavenly] prize to which God in Christ Jesus is calling us upward.

15So let those [of us] who are spiritually mature and full-grown have this mind and hold these convictions; and if in any respect you have a different attitude of mind, God will make that clear to you also.


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